CONSISTENCY

These thunderstorms 
They wane and wander 
Similar to the days I’ve pondered 
If youth and freedom hold the key 
To contentedness and joy 
Cause with each passing year I’m finding 
It easier to keep unwinding 
With every doubt and question still 
Left without answers 

So here I lay my heart to rest 
My loneliness, my aching head 
Too many things misunderstood 
So many more to come yet 
I’m not the first and not the last 
To notice that as time has passed 
The only thing remaining the same 
Is how consistently life goes on

LOOSE ENDS

It’s all so familiar, it’s almost the same 
The art on the walls still hang there without frames 
I know all the faces in the pictures on your fridge 
And my spot on your couch feels the same as it always did 

I miss the days when the sounds of the city were our wake up calls 
Where everything in us came so alive with the night fall. 
And all that it took was a couple of footsteps to get to your door 
I wish it was harder for me to remember how we were before 

You were such a perfect distraction 
When my world was falling apart 
You did nothing but hold me together 
As I fell for the safety in your arms.  
I don’t want to hear another word bout how this just takes time 
Everyone has their loose ends, and he’s just one of mine. 

And at the beginning, felt I had nothing to prove 
Everything about me settled into everything about you 
I swore I would never regret it, you were all that I'd need 
I'd find that the worst things for you are the hardest to leave 

You were such a perfect distraction 
When my world was falling apart 
You did nothing but hold me together 
As I fell for the safety in your arms.  
I don’t want to hear another word bout how this just takes time 
Everyone has their loose ends, and he’s just one of mine. 

Close my eyes and now, all I see is you and me last summer 
and I don't know why or how we ended up so far apart together 
I don’t want to hear another word bout how this just takes time 
Everyone has their loose ends 

You were such a perfect distraction 
When my world was falling apart 
You did nothing but hold me together 
As I fell for the safety in your arms.  
I don’t want to hear another word bout how this just takes time 
Everyone has their loose ends 
Everyone has their loose ends 
Everyone has their loose ends 
and he’s just one of mine.

WILDWOOD

I never meant to leave 
It kind of happened by mistake 
I often think how can this be 
That life became this way 
So far and detached from the home I once knew 
So far and detached, away from all of you 

Sometimes I’ll think of those long winter days 
Sledding as if the cold was far far far far away 
Or those warm summer nights, mason jars and fire flies 
Playing hockey til dark fell, under the street light 
I still taste the sweat, still feel the sting 
Of cutting close to curfew, and running, running 

Take me back 
Cracked sidewalks and open fields 
Millpond park and fishing reels 
The pedestrian city, where I learned how to drive 
Build forts in the forest, next to the zipline 
Sat by the bay window, so much of my childhood 
was spent here in this home 
on wildwood 

They put up those condos, we had a field day 
Rode our bikes to the model homes, and played 
House like the pros, we were better at it then, 
We were better at playing house when it was just pretend 
I still taste the sweat, still feel the sting 
Of cutting close to curfew, and running, running 

Take me back 
Cracked sidewalks and open fields 
Millpond park and fishing reels 
The pedestrian city, where I learned how to drive 
Build forts in the forest, next to the zipline 
Sat by the bay window, so much of my childhood 
was spent here in this home 
on wildwood 

I never meant to leave 
It kind of happened by mistake 
I often think how can this be 
That life became this way 

Take me back 
Cracked sidewalks and open fields 
Millpond park and fishing reels 
The pedestrian city, where I learned how to drive 
Build forts in the forest, next to the zipline 
Sat by the bay window, so much of my childhood 
was spent here in this home 
on wildwood

WHO I WANT TO BE

I’ve lost track 
Of the days 
Where all is seem to do 
Is lose the game 
But just as fast 
I can’t count the ways 
That you pulled me to my feet again 

Though I can't say, that any day's my favorite 
I can't say that life is kind 
All I know is you're the greatest thing 
that's ever happened to mine 

And when the sun shines I am who I want to be 
As far as I know, it shines the most when you're next to me 

I've been told 
Life's complicated 
and though that might be true 
You've demonstrated 
One exception to the rule 
It's the simplest thing loving you 

And when the sun shines I am who I want to be 
As far as I know, it shines the most when you're next to me 

You bring the beat to my heart you bring the heat to the spark and I don't wanna live another day without you 
You bring the heat to the spark, you bring the beat to my heart and I don't wanna live another day without you 

Thought I can't say that any day's my favorite 
No I can't say that life is kind 
All I know is you're the greatest thing that's ever happened to mine 

And when the sun shines 

When the sun shines I am who I wanna be 
As far as I know it shines the most when you're next to me

DIFFERENT COUCHES

I’m missing the days of 
Ignorant bliss 
When I was unaware of 
The safety surrounding us 

When all is stripped away 
Nothing is the same 
I’m trapped inside my mind 
When every single day 
I’m dying when I wake up 
Babe I'm walking on a thin line 

Cause I've been 
sleeping on a different couch, different bed, different house 
Every night to keep my sanity 
I've been sleeping on a different couch, different bed, different house 
Trying to remember how to breathe 

I'm going back to where I started 
Everything that I have 
Is in the backseat of my car 
I'm looking at this life I've been given 
and I'm scared to find that 
I don't want it anymore 

Every now and again, I drive by that old house 
And every face behind every wheel of every car is the likes of him, haunting me now 
I've lost who it was I was trying to become but I am 
dying to be free 
I am picking up, every single one of those scattered little pieces of me 

Cause I've been 
sleeping on a different couch, different bed, different house 
Every night to keep my sanity 
I've been sleeping on a different couch, different bed, different house 
Trying to remember how to breathe 

I'm going back to where I started 
Everything that I have 
Is in the backseat of my car 
I'm looking at this life I've been given 
and I'm scared to find that 
I don't want it anymore 

Cause I've been 
sleeping on a different couch, different bed, different house 
Every night to keep my sanity 
I've been sleeping on a different couch, different bed, different house 
Trying to remember how to breathe 

I'm going back to where I started 
Everything that I have 
Is in the backseat of my car 
I'm looking at this life I've been given 
and I'm scared to find that 
I don't want it anymore

OVER YOU

Find myself stuttering 
For the words I should say 
Find myself wondering 
If you’ll ever look my way again 
And I’ve had years 
To process this, get you out of my head 
Oh I’ve shed tears, tried to move along but I’m stuck here instead 
Getting over you. 

You’re resurfacing 
Back in my life 
And I am repressing the memories 
Or rather failing to try 
You can’t expect me 
To just leave the door closed 
When I’m dying to see 
If we have a choice of road, 
I'm getting over you 

Tried to leave you behind, tried so hard to forget 
Replay it all in my mind, far too abrupt of an end. 
Tried to rationalize, but I’ve got nothing to lose 
Keep saying I’m fine just want to tell you the truth. 
Wish you would come to my house, wish you would call me outside 
Kiss me on the mouth, say you'll give this another try 
Wish you would come to my house, so I could open the door 
And I'd tell you I’ve never loved you more. 

Before today 
It had been awhile 
Since I’d seen your face 
and now I’m putting out a fire 
We’ve come so far 
Going opposite directions 
Forgive my heart 
For having opposite intentions 
Than getting over you 

Tried to leave you behind, tried so hard to forget 
Replay it all in my mind, far too abrupt of an end. 
Tried to rationalize, but I’ve got nothing to lose 
Keep saying I’m fine just want to tell you the truth. 
Wish you would come to my house, wish you would call me outside 
Kiss me on the mouth, say you'll give this another try 
Wish you would come to my house, so I could open the door 
And I'd tell you I’ve never loved you more.

HERE

Every street, every sidewalk every path that I'm on 
Feels like I'm walking through our past 
When he was next to me 
My head fit perfectly, had its own place on his shoulder 

And every road was blocked by orange cones 
On the way to those apartments, I had two that felt like home 
To put it simply, I am trapped by the memories 
Of how we got here now 

I've been looking for a door, but I can't even find a window 
Don't want to be here anymore, but I've got no place else left to go 
I can't keep staying here, for staying's sake 
Cannot salvage what's left of the mess that we made 
And it's a risk that I'm willing to take 
To get lost along the way 
It's just too hard to be here now 

There was stillness on Delaware avenue 
A dark symphony of silence that as of now resembles you 
And all the time I spent at the monument 
Writing melodies for no one 

I loved that stale scent of old cigarettes 
That would leak in from all the neighbors 
Through those painted over vents 
We were happy then 
I'm not sure where or when or how we got here now 

I've been looking for a door, but I can't even find a window 
Don't want to be here anymore, but I've got no place else left to go 
I can't keep staying here, for staying's sake 
Cannot salvage what's left of the mess that we made 
And it's a risk that I'm willing to take 
To get lost along the way 
It's just too hard to be here now 

But I can't keep staying here 
Oh no I can't keep staying here 
I can't keep staying here 

I can't keep staying here, for staying's sake 
Cannot salvage what's left of the mess that we made 
And it's a risk that I'm willing to take 
To get lost along the way 
It's a risk that I'm willing to take 
To get lost along the way

RUNAWAY TRAIN

Runaway train 
Where you going 
Is it alright with you 
If I ride along 
I’m not really sure what I’m after 
But for now you look like a good home. 

Runaway train 
Take me with you 
I wanna fall in love again 
In a quaint little town, where no one knows me 
And I can find my way again 

Cause I hear that this life is beautiful 
And you’ve seen a lot of the world 
I wanna live something meaningful 
Could you tell me where I should start 
Runaway train. 

Runaway train 
Tell me your secrets 
I wanna feel love again 
I wanna find what I’m after 
I wanna be whole again 

I hear that this life is beautiful 
And you’ve seen a lot of the world 
I wanna live something meaningful 
Could you tell me where I should start 

Runaway train, 
Sound your alarm 
Let the folks know 
That we’re barreling on 
Not sure if I’m ready yet 
To step off or down 
So with your permission 
I think I’ll just stick around. 

Runaway train 
Don't you ever get tired 
Of turning your wheels and carrying loads 
You hardly slow down, have but one track to follow 
Don’t you wish all the time you had just a few roads? 


Cause I hear that this life is beautiful 
And you’ve seen a lot of the world 
I wanna live something meaningful 
Could you tell me where I should start 
Runaway train, you've seen a lot of the world 
Oh and I wanna live something meaningful 
Could you tell me where I should start 
Runaway train

SUN AND THE MOON

It's been nice coming home to you 
at the end of the day 
But the only reason I still do 
Is cause he asked me to stay 

Maybe it was the way that he said my name when he told me goodbye 
Helped me see that as long as he's been a part of my life 
I haven't stopped loving him 
Oh i might never stop loving him 

So I'll keep driving 
Til the sun and the moon stop 
Fighting for space in the sky 
Once again once again I am 
Looking out for the end cause you are 
Too far to have, but close enough to keep me wondering 

There's nothing left of this city 
But the pieces that once made it home 
All the nooks and the crannies 
That I only know 
Because you showed them to me 

So I'll keep driving 
Til the sun and the moon stop 
Fighting for space in the sky 
Once again once again I am 
Looking out for the end cause you are 
Too far to have, but close enough to keep me wondering 

From St. Louis to Boston 
The further I go, the more that I miss him 
One goodbye, one kiss 
Get out of my mind I wanna forget that 
One night in one sky, a few stars aligned 
Only to scatter with the sunrise 

So I'll keep driving 
Til the sun and the moon stop 
Fighting for space in the sky 
Once again once again I am 
Looking out for the end cause you are 
Too far to have, but close enough to keep me wondering

DON'T WANT YOU BACK

Do you sing to her 
Like you used to sing to me 
I bet your eyes don’t leave her’s when she speaks 
And I meant it when I said 
That I just want you to be happy 
But oh how I wonder, when you are with her 
Are you ever thinking of me 

I can’t stay in this small town 
With it’s big city people 
I’ve been thinking out loud 
But lately my thoughts and I are feeble 
I’ve been trying to move on 
But you’re just one problem among several others 
And I don’t mean to hold on 
But you were the only one who could put me back together 

Why did I let you go? 
Took oh so long to see 
That this is a lonely road 
Without you here beside me 
Why did I let you go 
If only I had seen 
Now it’s too late I know 
So I’ll repeat til I believe 

Don’t want you back. 

There’s a memory in my mind framed 
Of us driving together 
Singing “Stop This Train” over your little red car’s speakers 

Why can I not let go 
Of seemingly meaningless moments 
They add up so fast though 
All at once crashing over when I least expect it 

Why did I let you go? 
Took oh so long to see 
That this is a lonely road 
Without you here beside me 
Why did I let you go 
If only I had seen 
Now it’s too late I know 
So I’ll repeat til I believe 

Don't want you back, no I don't want you back

I WILL SING

Maybe I’ll move 
To the hills of Ireland 
Try to learn how not to prove 
Myself to anyone 
Maybe buy an instrument 
That I don’t know yet 
Pour my soul and my sentiment 
Pour myself into learning it 

Maybe I’ll head on 
Head on to Chicago 
Find some friends I can lean on 
Find some hope for tomorrow 
Cause if home’s where the heart is 
Won't you tell me where’s mine 
Cause the truth of the matter is 
They’re both hard to find 

One of these days I’ll break free from the cage 
Throw all the cast iron off & away 
But try as I might, oh and try as I may 
To cast off my burdens, seems they’re here to stay 

Maybe I’ll head down 
Head down to the southern coast 
And get lost in the ocean 
In my grandfather’s boat 
Walk along the shoreline 
Feel the earth neath my toes 
And I'll head the tide's warning 
As it comes and it goes 

One of these days I’ll break free from the cage 
Throw all the cast iron off & away 
But try as I might, oh and try as I may 
To cast off my burdens, seems they’re here to stay 
Oh but I will sing 
Every line 
Every melody 
Til I’m finally free 
Of all of the trouble this life seems to bring 

My family’s getting older 
And so am I 
And we are living further 
Apart than I’d like 
So maybe I’ll head up north, 
To colder skies 
Live with only the kind of warmth 
Seen in my baby sisters eyes 

One of these days I’ll break free from the cage 
Throw all the cast iron off & away 
But try as I might, oh and try as I may 
To cast off my burdens, seems they’re here to stay 
Oh but I will sing 
Every line 
Every melody 
Til I’m finally free 
Of all of the trouble this life seems to bring

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